What should I do about this? Ten points to best answer.?

I want to start changing my life. I have been so miserable. I was homeschooled, had no friends AT ALL growing up. I live in the country, and I never got to leave the house. My family doesn't have much money. And well, it all took its toll on me. I used to be suicidal. I now am almost nineteen, I have a job, and I have a few friends. I am a bit happier, but I am so confused with myself. I want to be all that I can be. I want to love with all my heart. I want to forgive my enemies, and I want to do good for the people in my life. I want to live a life where I live it to the fullest. I had started going out with a co-worker of mine last month, and we connected really well. But then after two weeks, he told me that he was "too broken from his past" and broke up with me. I was shattered. When he dumped me, it was over the phone, and I started to get snappy with him. Since then we haven't really talked much, and he is now ignoring me. The reason I was a ***** to him, was because I didn't believe him. But after all that, I went ahead and decided to try changing everything. I made over my room, and I started attempting to talk to more people and broaden my horizons. So I am feeling a bit better now about what he did to me, but should I just confront him at work and tell him that its all good, and we can be friends? I don't like having enemies, and I want to be able to know I tried my best.